Victor and Jay, backdated to March 27th
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om_mainAfter Mutant Thievery Scandal's first gig, Victor and Jay finally talk about the tension between them
warning: underage drinking mentioned, underage sex briefly mentioned, discussing coming out pressures,
After the show it was a little hard to get to any of the band after the show but persistence was key and FINALLY he caught Jay and jumped him with a huge hug from behind. The feathers in the face were totally worth it.
"You were awesome up there!"
Jay was still sweating bullets despite the temperate weather, and he'd discarded his reeking shirt a while ago.
Even if Victor hadn't spoken, Jay would have known him by the touch of his skin. Very, very lightly, he laid his hands on Victor's arms. "Thanks, little buddy."
The younger boy released him quickly so that he could turn. He wasn't quite as tall as Jay was but he was getting there with every growth spurt so the 'little buddy' comment confused him especially since it kind of sounded like he was talking to a little kid or something!
"Er, yeah so anyway what was the last song called? The encore one coz that was possibly my favourite. I, like, changed my mind nearly every song though!" He laughed
"Ah, that's from this kinda obscure band that my friend's big sister used to like. The song's just called In a Sweater Poorly Knit. It's s good closer because it's got that repetitive bit at the end." It was still very easy to talk to Victor when there was a solid topic between them. It was the silences that were killing Jay, wracking him with guilt.
"Is that the next one you'll be teaching me or have I lost you to the rock and roll lifestyle already?" Vic joked, grinning wide.
"Sure, if you'd like. It's not out of your skill level." If anything, it was potentially a chance for the bassist to show off.
"Maybe on day I'll be good enough to open for you guys," Which was pretty much a joke too as he helped himself to a drink.
Jay had already had several. "I hope so. A teacher's dream."
"Well, if I ever get the nerve to come out as a mutant, who knows right?" Victor shrugged a little, it was still something that terrified him though. "No way would I ever sing though, it'd be like some scuzzy busker opening for, for, I dunno some amazing vocalist like Pavaroti. Different leagues."
Made Jay feel a little guilty about that particular mutation. "Irvine was intimidated at first, but you saw how happy he was singing tonight."
"Irvine's really good." Victor nodded with the obvious implication being 'and I'm not'.
"He is!" Jay utterly missed the subtext. "We're gonna go all the way. Unstoppable."
"You are," The younger boy nodded enthusiastically at that. "You made a lot of new fans tonight but, hey, I was already one and don't you forget that." He lightly nudged Jay with an elbow.
"You can be president of the fan club." The small contact was fine. Casual. But it reminded Jay a bit of his anxiety.
"Isn't that place already taken?" Victor smirked.
"I think he's mostly a fan of the view," Jay said. Good god, but it was hard to talk about Sirius to Victor, nowadays.
He laughed at that "Either way, he's totally your number one fan." Sirius had been all over Jay all night and it had veered between sweet and 'just get a room already' several times.
"Kind of. Yeah. Things are...kind of going well."
"Oh yeah?" His smile was genuine there. "I'm happy for you, both of you. You two need a little goodness."
"Thanks. Really, thanks."
"You look surprised, why would me wanting you happy be surprising?" Victor asked, eyeing his friend curiously.
"I...I've just been feeling guilty," he admitted. Stupid champagne, going right to his head.
Which caused an instant frown "How come?" He had a inkling but had to hear it from Jay to be sure.
"Because...I really messed things up with you. I fucked up, and you didn't deserve that. Now things are getting real with Sirius, and I..." Jay looked at the ground.
"Jay, nothing's fucked up with us. I mean it." Vic told him firmly
Jay rubbed at his forehead. This headache definitely needed to be combated with more champagne. "Yeah, but..."
"But what? You're happy, he's happy and I'm happy, there's no problem here. I swear." He insisted, it was sweet to be worried but really unnecessary.
Jay looked at him skeptically. "You're sure?"
"Why wouldn't there be?" Victor asked honestly.
"I dunno. I'd be pretty fuckin' pissed at me, if I were you."
"What coz of one little kiss? We both knew you're totally Sirius's all along so I never expected anything from you." Which was the absolute truth. He didn't resent him, hell considering he was in such a state at the time of the kiss, Victor was probably the one at fault for letting him do it.
"Still." Jay shrugged. "Ah, who knows. Maybe I'm just a real professional at this self loathing thing."
"You do seem to do it a lot but don't use me as a reason. I'm fine, just been wondering what was going on with you mostly."
"This, mostly." A glance at the stage managed to put a grin back on Jay's face. "And, y'know, glamorously getting my photo taken for money once in a while."
Vic had meant the distant behaviour but, hey, if Jay was gonna go back to normal he was happy to move on too. "So I've seen, all my friends are being interviewed in magazines. It's crazy."
"It's crazy," Jay agreed. "We're, like, the cutting edge, though. We're all gonna be famous one day, somehow, mark my words."
"Yeah, maybe." Victor sipped his drink.
"I just wanna make a difference." Jay felt bad--he could tell he'd upset Victor. "You already are, I mean, you're in hero training."
"Ugh, not you too. I'm no hero, I just helped my friend. Sides, I might not ever get picked for another mission, who knows." And if he couldn't get the guts to go public as a mutant then his acting dreams were dust too.
"True. It would sure reduce my personal chances of a heart attack. But the point is...we're the first generation. Everything we do, it means something."
"See, you say stuff like that and I know why you're saying it and I totally get it but I end up feeling like a coward." Victor admitted softly.
"I don't see what reason you have to feel that way."
"Coz I don't know if I'm brave enough and I start feeling like I should. I mean it's not just you, so many people are coming out but I can't...I can't shake the feeling that it wouldn't go so well for me." And that was the sort of self-depreciating talk that made most people around here roll their eyes or snap at him so mostly he kept it to himself. He'd only mentioned it to Pietro.
"Coming out is scary. Especially with physical mutations. And I don't think it's wise or productive to be upset with yourself for needing more time before you do something terrifying." Jay laid his hand on Victor's shoulder. "When the time comes, just let me know if I can help."
"You don't think I'm being silly or selfish?" Sometimes when Jay or anyone else talked about coming out and being role models and all that importance, he worried.
"No. I think you have a bigger hurdle to jump than most people and shouldn't be rushed."
Victor smiled at that and moved to hug him, because they'd always been huggy friends before so why change now?
Jay accepted the hug, a bit more comfortable than he had been in a while. "I smell totally gross, be careful," he laughed.
"It's fine, it's almost a novelty for a boy who can't sweat anymore." Victor laughed before asking "Ok, so who gets to explain this to Santo?"
"You're on Santo duty. Permanently."
"Awww man," He buried his face in feathers dramatically.
"Hey. When you brought him home, you said you'd feed him and take him for walks. No backing out now..."
Victor snorted and changed topics "So, here's the part where you catch me up on all the gossip you've been worried would make me jealous or whatever ridic thing you were thinking."
"What, about Sirius?" Jay did a quick scan to see if he could spot him. "Actually, that might be a bit boring."
"Why? You two are looking kind of, I dunno almost coupley. Don't worry, will not say that in front of him, isn't that exciting?" He asked curiously.
"For me? Exciting as hell. I have to keep it to myself though because I'm pretty sure he has no idea it's happening. But that's just the point--couples are boring. We have favorite spots to go to, now, and we hold hands and we have in jokes and he makes me go with him to the humane society once a week. Couples are only interesting to the people in them." Jay grinned. "Except...did you see the guitar he got me? That is not boring."
"You showed me
warning: underage drinking mentioned, underage sex briefly mentioned, discussing coming out pressures,
After the show it was a little hard to get to any of the band after the show but persistence was key and FINALLY he caught Jay and jumped him with a huge hug from behind. The feathers in the face were totally worth it.
"You were awesome up there!"
Jay was still sweating bullets despite the temperate weather, and he'd discarded his reeking shirt a while ago.
Even if Victor hadn't spoken, Jay would have known him by the touch of his skin. Very, very lightly, he laid his hands on Victor's arms. "Thanks, little buddy."
The younger boy released him quickly so that he could turn. He wasn't quite as tall as Jay was but he was getting there with every growth spurt so the 'little buddy' comment confused him especially since it kind of sounded like he was talking to a little kid or something!
"Er, yeah so anyway what was the last song called? The encore one coz that was possibly my favourite. I, like, changed my mind nearly every song though!" He laughed
"Ah, that's from this kinda obscure band that my friend's big sister used to like. The song's just called In a Sweater Poorly Knit. It's s good closer because it's got that repetitive bit at the end." It was still very easy to talk to Victor when there was a solid topic between them. It was the silences that were killing Jay, wracking him with guilt.
"Is that the next one you'll be teaching me or have I lost you to the rock and roll lifestyle already?" Vic joked, grinning wide.
"Sure, if you'd like. It's not out of your skill level." If anything, it was potentially a chance for the bassist to show off.
"Maybe on day I'll be good enough to open for you guys," Which was pretty much a joke too as he helped himself to a drink.
Jay had already had several. "I hope so. A teacher's dream."
"Well, if I ever get the nerve to come out as a mutant, who knows right?" Victor shrugged a little, it was still something that terrified him though. "No way would I ever sing though, it'd be like some scuzzy busker opening for, for, I dunno some amazing vocalist like Pavaroti. Different leagues."
Made Jay feel a little guilty about that particular mutation. "Irvine was intimidated at first, but you saw how happy he was singing tonight."
"Irvine's really good." Victor nodded with the obvious implication being 'and I'm not'.
"He is!" Jay utterly missed the subtext. "We're gonna go all the way. Unstoppable."
"You are," The younger boy nodded enthusiastically at that. "You made a lot of new fans tonight but, hey, I was already one and don't you forget that." He lightly nudged Jay with an elbow.
"You can be president of the fan club." The small contact was fine. Casual. But it reminded Jay a bit of his anxiety.
"Isn't that place already taken?" Victor smirked.
"I think he's mostly a fan of the view," Jay said. Good god, but it was hard to talk about Sirius to Victor, nowadays.
He laughed at that "Either way, he's totally your number one fan." Sirius had been all over Jay all night and it had veered between sweet and 'just get a room already' several times.
"Kind of. Yeah. Things are...kind of going well."
"Oh yeah?" His smile was genuine there. "I'm happy for you, both of you. You two need a little goodness."
"Thanks. Really, thanks."
"You look surprised, why would me wanting you happy be surprising?" Victor asked, eyeing his friend curiously.
"I...I've just been feeling guilty," he admitted. Stupid champagne, going right to his head.
Which caused an instant frown "How come?" He had a inkling but had to hear it from Jay to be sure.
"Because...I really messed things up with you. I fucked up, and you didn't deserve that. Now things are getting real with Sirius, and I..." Jay looked at the ground.
"Jay, nothing's fucked up with us. I mean it." Vic told him firmly
Jay rubbed at his forehead. This headache definitely needed to be combated with more champagne. "Yeah, but..."
"But what? You're happy, he's happy and I'm happy, there's no problem here. I swear." He insisted, it was sweet to be worried but really unnecessary.
Jay looked at him skeptically. "You're sure?"
"Why wouldn't there be?" Victor asked honestly.
"I dunno. I'd be pretty fuckin' pissed at me, if I were you."
"What coz of one little kiss? We both knew you're totally Sirius's all along so I never expected anything from you." Which was the absolute truth. He didn't resent him, hell considering he was in such a state at the time of the kiss, Victor was probably the one at fault for letting him do it.
"Still." Jay shrugged. "Ah, who knows. Maybe I'm just a real professional at this self loathing thing."
"You do seem to do it a lot but don't use me as a reason. I'm fine, just been wondering what was going on with you mostly."
"This, mostly." A glance at the stage managed to put a grin back on Jay's face. "And, y'know, glamorously getting my photo taken for money once in a while."
Vic had meant the distant behaviour but, hey, if Jay was gonna go back to normal he was happy to move on too. "So I've seen, all my friends are being interviewed in magazines. It's crazy."
"It's crazy," Jay agreed. "We're, like, the cutting edge, though. We're all gonna be famous one day, somehow, mark my words."
"Yeah, maybe." Victor sipped his drink.
"I just wanna make a difference." Jay felt bad--he could tell he'd upset Victor. "You already are, I mean, you're in hero training."
"Ugh, not you too. I'm no hero, I just helped my friend. Sides, I might not ever get picked for another mission, who knows." And if he couldn't get the guts to go public as a mutant then his acting dreams were dust too.
"True. It would sure reduce my personal chances of a heart attack. But the point is...we're the first generation. Everything we do, it means something."
"See, you say stuff like that and I know why you're saying it and I totally get it but I end up feeling like a coward." Victor admitted softly.
"I don't see what reason you have to feel that way."
"Coz I don't know if I'm brave enough and I start feeling like I should. I mean it's not just you, so many people are coming out but I can't...I can't shake the feeling that it wouldn't go so well for me." And that was the sort of self-depreciating talk that made most people around here roll their eyes or snap at him so mostly he kept it to himself. He'd only mentioned it to Pietro.
"Coming out is scary. Especially with physical mutations. And I don't think it's wise or productive to be upset with yourself for needing more time before you do something terrifying." Jay laid his hand on Victor's shoulder. "When the time comes, just let me know if I can help."
"You don't think I'm being silly or selfish?" Sometimes when Jay or anyone else talked about coming out and being role models and all that importance, he worried.
"No. I think you have a bigger hurdle to jump than most people and shouldn't be rushed."
Victor smiled at that and moved to hug him, because they'd always been huggy friends before so why change now?
Jay accepted the hug, a bit more comfortable than he had been in a while. "I smell totally gross, be careful," he laughed.
"It's fine, it's almost a novelty for a boy who can't sweat anymore." Victor laughed before asking "Ok, so who gets to explain this to Santo?"
"You're on Santo duty. Permanently."
"Awww man," He buried his face in feathers dramatically.
"Hey. When you brought him home, you said you'd feed him and take him for walks. No backing out now..."
Victor snorted and changed topics "So, here's the part where you catch me up on all the gossip you've been worried would make me jealous or whatever ridic thing you were thinking."
"What, about Sirius?" Jay did a quick scan to see if he could spot him. "Actually, that might be a bit boring."
"Why? You two are looking kind of, I dunno almost coupley. Don't worry, will not say that in front of him, isn't that exciting?" He asked curiously.
"For me? Exciting as hell. I have to keep it to myself though because I'm pretty sure he has no idea it's happening. But that's just the point--couples are boring. We have favorite spots to go to, now, and we hold hands and we have in jokes and he makes me go with him to the humane society once a week. Couples are only interesting to the people in them." Jay grinned. "Except...did you see the guitar he got me? That is not boring."
"You showed me
